Salamu alikkum wa rahmatulah, hope ramadan is treating everyone well, or better yet, everyone is treating ramadan well. A while back we talked about patience and how to be patient. Although i don’t think I can completely understand or can apply it, I think sometimes being patient is being sad or being in pain or being afraid and continuing with life while we’re certain that it is best and that it will pass with the blessing of Allah subhanaho wa ta’alla. May Allah give us the courage and strength to be patient and the wisdom to know how to do it.
InDisguise
Subhanallah, the first ten days of mercy are over. I was thinking about how the mercy of allah comes in all forms and shapes. We look at good things as being mercy, and bad things as tests or punishments. But often there is more mercy in bad events then in good. Often by being oppressed we learn to become victorious and even more we learn to give victory to others. By making mistakes we need to be forgiven and as a result learn to forgive others. By being broken and weak, we become merciful on others who are broken as well. And as we loose many blessings in and around us, we gain an appreciation and taste a happiness in many other blessings that were once un-noticed.
Depend on Him always
Lol, I am full of words today, but hopefully they’re not empty 
I remembered something about ibn baz, may Allah have mercy on him, they asked him one day why his lips are always moving , and he said that he was always remembering Allah with zikr and that if he stopped for one minute, his heart would die. Subhnallah, this is from one of the greatest scholars of our time. It reminded me of the duaa that the prophet peace be upon him himself would make where he would ask Allah not to leave him to himself even for a moment. As well as the hadith where the prophet peace be upon him said that there will come a time where holding on to one’s deen is like a person holding on to a burning coal with their bare hands. And subhanallah, as fast as the hearts change now a days and as easy as people seem to change from day to day, I understand why Ibn baz was soo afraid. May the one in whose hands are our hearts keep our hearts steadfast on His religion. May He allow us to see the truth as truth and give us the strength to follow it, and the falsehood as falsehood and give us the strength to stay away from it.
snake skin
I was thinking how snakes shed their skin every now and then and subhanallah, I think humans shed as well. The skin of the snake is a wall that protects them from the outside and in the same way, we all have this strength and shield that protects us from the outside world. But the same way that time wears out the snake’s skin, life and its obstacles tends to wear out this shield of ours. Whether its the sins we commit, tests that Alalh brings our way, harm brought on us by others or simply a combination of all three and more, our skin becomes very weak and incapable of protecting us the way it used to. And just like the snake, sometimes it becomes so worn out that wee need to shed it and replace it with a new one. During those times we become the most vulnrable. We have nothing to protect us, so we feel weak and broken. But subhanalalh, when we are the lowest we can be is when we can find this new skin thats stronger than the last. And only then can we have such a shining and lustering new us But the hardest part is having this patience to go through this period of fear, uncertainty, weakness, and pain until we come to the better us. And subhanallah, its so scary that many people don’t make it, many kill themselves because like with every emotion we feel like this misery will never end. However in that state, we learn mercy on those who are vulnrable like we once were. Lacking brute strength and confidence, we are forced to show the kinder, humble side of us. And most importantly, with no strength of our own, we begin to rely on the strength of the one in whose hands lies all our fates.
May Allah protect us from the trials of this duania and everything that breaks us and may He put in our hearts mercy, forgiveness, and tolerance towards those who are weak, strong, or both. May He give us the strength to withstand the times we are vulnrable and the ability to become stronger when we come out.
Day 5/6?
I heard a quote by a non muslim lady that subhanallah hit home for me. She said: ” the presence of fear is a sure sign that you are trusting in your own strength.” and what she meant by it is that if you trusted in God and depended on Him you wouldn’t be afraid, but when you start depending on your own abilities and powers for everything than you’ll always be afraid because there are always people who are stronger, smarter, or better than you. May Allah make our dependence completely on Him, and keep our hearts strong with faith.
Day 4
peace and blessing and mercy of Allah be upon all who is reading,
alhamdulillah, by the blessing of allah it is day four of ramadan and we are living through it. I wanted to share one quote of a an old lady who isn’t muslim but wise non the less, may Allah guide her. she said: “When people hurt you, they hold power over you and if you don’t forgive them, they keep that power.” may Allah give all of us the power for forgive and have mercy on others so that He may forgive and have mercy on us. Ameen 
Ramadan Day 3 :)
alhamdulillah, everything is going well, except fro memorization, that needs much improvement. But here is what I have learned and can testify for, salat on the prophet peace be upon him removes all worries of this life and the next. The salat that is mentioned in the hadiths is that said as the second part of tashahud : alahuma sali a’ala muhamad wa a’ala ali muhamad, …….
Here are some benefits listed by ibn al qaim as benefits of salat on the prophet peace be upon him, i almost didn’t wanna share because of how amazing it is, it felt like iam giving away a treasure but inshallah i guess Allah’s treasure is more then enough to go around and inshallah i’ll be getting some ajur for sharing ( they are in arabic so please tanslate anyone who can :
- امتثال أمر الله سبحانه وتعالى.
2- حصول عشر صلوات من الله على المصلي مرة.
3- يكتب له عشر حسنات ويمحو عنه عشر سيئات.
4- أن يرفع له عشر درجات.
5- أنه يرجى إجابة دعائه إذا قدمها أمامه فهي تصاعد الدعاء إلى عند رب العالمين.
6- أنها سبب لشفاعته 
إذا قرنها بسؤال الوسيلة له، أو إفرادها.
7- أنها سبب لغفران الذنوب.
8- أنها سبب لكفاية الله ما أهمه.
9- أنها سبب لقرب العبد منه يوم القيامة.
10- أنها سبب لصلاة الله على المصلي وصلاة الملائكة عليه.
11- أنها سبب لرد النبي الصلاة والسلام على المصلي.
12- أنها سبب لطيب المجلس، وأن لا يعود حسرة على أهله يوم القيامة.
13- أنها سبب لنفي الفقر.
14- أنها تنفي عن العبد اسم ( البخيل ) إذا صلى عليه عند ذكره .
15- أنها سبب لإلقاء الله سبحانه وتعالى الثناء الحسن للمصلي عليه بين أهل السماء والأرض، لأن المصلي طالب من الله أن يثني على رسوله ويكرمه ويشرفه، والجزاء من جنس العمل فلا بد أن يحصل للمصلي نوع من ذلك.
16- أنها سبب للبركة في ذات المصلي وعمله وعمره وأسباب مصالحه لأن المصلي داع ربه أن يبارك عليه وعلى آله وهذا الدعاء مستجاب والجزاء من جنسه.
17- أنها سبب لعرض اسم المصلي عليه وذكره عنده كما تقدم قوله : { إن صلاتكم معروضة عليّ } وقوله : { إن الله وكّل بقبري ملائكة يبلغونني عن أمتي السلام} وكفى بالعبد نبلاً أن يذكر اسمه بالخير بين يدي رسول الله .
18- أنها سبب لتثبيت القدم على الصراط والجواز عليه لحديث عبدالرحمن بن سمرة الذي رواه عنه سعيد بن المسيب في رؤيا النبي وفيه: { ورأيت رجلاً من أمتي يزحف على الصراط ويحبو أحياناً ويتعلق أحياناً، فجاءته صلاته عليّ فأقامته على قدميه وأنقذته } [رواه أبو موسى المديني وبنى عليه كتابه في "الترغيب والترهيب" وقال: هذا حديث حسن جداً].
19- أنها سبب لدوام محبة الرسول وزيادتها وتضاعفها، وذلك عقد من عقود الإيمان الذي لا يتم إلا به لأن العبد كلما أكثر من ذكر المحبوب واستحضاره في قلبه واستحضار محاسنه ومعانيه الجالبة لحبه فسيتضاعف حبّه له وتزايد شوقه إليه، واستولى على جميع قلبه، وإذا أعرض عن ذكره وإحضار محاسنه يغلبه، نقص حبه من قلبه، ولا شيء أقر لعين المحب من رؤية محبوبه ولا أقر لقلبه من ذكر محاسنه، وتكون زيادة ذلك ونقصانه بحسب زيادة الحب ونقصانه في قلبه والحس شاهد بذلك.
20- أنها سبب لهداية العبد وحياة قلبه، فإنه كلما أكثر الصلاة عليه وذكره، استولت محبته على قلبه، حتى لا يبقى في قلبه معارضة لشيء من أوامره، ولا شك في شيء مما جاء به، بل يصير ما جاء به مكتوباً مسطوراً في قلبه ويقتبس الهدي والفلاح وأنواع العلوم منه، فأهل العلم العارفين بسنته وهديه المتبعين له كلما ازدادوا فيما جاء به من معرفة، ازدادوا له محبة ومعرفة بحقيقة الصلاة المطلوبة له من الله.
